Week Fourteen
There was a turn at the start of the week where the storm passed and left at least a day of sunny weather, a nice change. Forecasters predicted it was going to be a good week but it wasn't. But on the warmer day it meant more people out and about. I did a few walks. I wanted to see if I could repeat the walk I did the week before- halfway. As I said in my previous post at the moment I am back doing graduated exposure in a futile attempt to get the nursery. Its not actually to get to the destination. I don't see that happening so why beat myself up everything I fail to do it. If I did do it then great. But its more about getting me out and about.
I haven't managed to repeat it this week. I've broken the steps into 10. Halfway is obviously step 5. This is step 4 so close. Its a local monument. In all these years I still have not learned what it represents. Can't even think what. Anyone I ask doesn't know either. Its just there.
It is not very focused. Not sure why. Well I do. I try not to draw attention so around town I tend to take photos on the sly. They usually end up out of focus and rarely straight. It doesn't say much for composition either. Obviously the best shots were from behind it as I am shooting into the sun here. But that's OK. I like the sun on one side and its reflection hitting off a metal pole on the other side with the slightly silhouetted monument in between. Any thoughts of going to step 5 that day were crushed when I looked down to see the park was mobbed. Not for me. I trotted on back up the road.
Anxiety has been high this week. Maybe I am lucky to have had more occupation than usual. Just want to, in these periods, press the 'off' switch and get someone to turn it on when things have changed for the better. I can never find it though. I feel weighed down with it. Like swimming in tar. It a bugger for sure.
To distract myself, I suppose, I helped my wife rip apart the book case, get all the many books into bags and put them up the loft which killed a few hours. Not sure what we will do with the books. I have so many but I now also have a Kindle. Wish I could trade the paper for the digital. It means we have some space and the dinner table can come out from behind the sofa and as a result I don't need to move many things for dinner time. So the kids were happy getting to eat at the table which they will do from now on. Mostly we opt for the beanbag trays because its so much hassle to rearrange everything just to set a table. Now that is not a problem so that's a positive isn't it? And as it folds away it doesn't take up much room when it is not getting used.
This week I also had to take some photos of the roof so we could look at them later- front and back. The reason being is we have noticed a lot of moss on the roof that is not on the roof of others. There is also big patch in the guttering which we have noticed corresponds in location with the damp in the kids room so we'll have to get that cleared as it looks like the likely cause. The moss is evident. Probably worse than a looks. Don't have a ladder big enough to get up and not sure I want to if I'm honest. My dad has volunteered but its a bit unfair when he lives miles away and works usually 7 days a week. As it turns out this photo was better than anything else I had to offer this week even though that was not the purpose so here it is.
